LIFE?!?

Being ME! and only ME!

Well, I have a sweet Boyfriend but my nana wants to make up lies about him and it hurts me to hear those words from her mouth.......I feel a connection to him...but because he is turning 19 pretty soon my nana says she doesn't trust him and she likes to say he has a porn addiction...WTF! He is not a person like that he is shy and sweet and he is the greatest guy i've ever met......BUT my grandparents do not like me to date and it really isn't fair.....Plus i had blocked my NOSY ass aunt and she finally goes to look at my facebook and she notices she can't so she tell my nana and i get bitched at just because i want to have my own life i want to be able to post what i want to not what they want me to......I JUST CANT TAKE THIER CRAP ANYMORE!


                                                                    Love Forever, Forever Lost

Life couldn't get any worse

Well had a bad/good weekend. 
First, My nana smacked me and i thought she never would do that.....it hurt me mentally more than physically. My nana was suppose to be the person that saved me from the pain not brought me pain.....and i don't even know what i did  to deserve it.......But up side was i spent last night at a super bowl party with my boy friend after i begged and pleaded for my grandparents to let me go.......


                                                                                    Love, Forever Lost.

Just Because I Refuse To Sink doesn't mean you have to go down with the ship.

Well i have a friend that lost her dad and she wants to end her life and i have tried to tell her that every thing will be okay in the end because i know how its like and the other day during lunch i seen her and i talked to her and i had seen she was playing with a razor over her wrist and i have no idea what to do any more i do not know how to help her anymore.....i dont want to loose her as in her life going away because she thinks she cant live without her dad but everyone deals with everything in their own way i just dont want her going so far as taking her life can anyone help me try to get her to understand she needs her life? 
                                     
                                                                                                          Love....Forever Lost

Life?

Hey if there anyone out there reading this my life right now is hell i dont know if i can live it anymore these days are so hard to keep a smile on my face, and my head held high. I just wish someone would care how i feel and listen to what i've got to say with out judging me, if i tell someone i had cut ill get a speech if i tell someone i cried all night they will say why and im sorry but noone will just listen. Ive got so much pain i want it to all go away, i want the terrible memories to disappear, i just want someone to care. i donte really complain about anything, i dont usually tell people what i want because i usually try to help other people. Just dont think im a whiny lil bitch because im not.                                     

                                             If anybody's out there Love Forever Lost.....

Memories

Memories....
I still am stuck with the fact that all the people who i was with before called a slut, whore, told me noone wanted me and no one ever will...... Im still stuck with everything in my mind no one can help me.....

Home, memory?

House isn't a set home,
Or a single town on a map.
It was wherever the people  who loved you were,
Whenever you were together.
Not a place but a moment,
And then another,
Building on each other like bricks to create a solid shelter that you take with you for your entire life,
Wherever you may be.